Anti No Preparation / Self-Control

Weekends are tough. I don't have an issue with choosing the right things to eat. What I do have an issue with is preparation. I love being prepared, and I was able to log my food a day ahead of time for at least three days this week!! I remember back to week one: I thought I would NEVER get to the point of being able to log even one meal in ahead of time! However, by Friday I find myself exhausted, too weary to think. So I wake up Saturday and Sunday mornings thinking, I got this. I've logged enough to know what I basically want or can have up through afternoon snack. And then all of a sudden, it's dinner time. Oh, no! We didn't make it to the grocery, or pull out that frozen fish, or . . . . I scrambled tonight (again). My husband did have thawed fish that he cooked up, thank goodness. But I had to plug it in with veggies first to see how it would fit in the rest of my day. And then on to figuring out a bedtime snack. It is now 9:15 pm and I have yet to eat my apple with peanut butter to get my calories in. Sigh. I hate not being prepared! My choices tonight were really good, I believe, and the nutrition is pretty much right on!

On a side note, I now believe I have self control and I am in charge! Why did it take me until now to fully believe? I made it through this week: Wednesday was a pizza party for my section of the department. Friday was a pizza party for the entire department, with tons of my favorite candy. Tonight was my niece's birthday party. She had a "girl" party and my daughter was invited. Being the youngest one at 2 1/2, and all the other girls were at least 6+, I decided to stay and help with "crowd" control as my daughter loves to get into everything. Guess what they had for dinner? Pizza. And cupcakes. AND M&Ms. Oh my gosh. I think I got in my remaining 34 ounces from all the saliva I swallowed back down. But I didn't cave! Not even for the "natural, no artificial coloring" M&Ms that I so desperately wanted - just one! But no :) I'm still terrified of caving after the 12 weeks is over. One day at a time, one choice at a time, one success at a time. I can continue doing this! Because I proved me to myself this week :) Awww, yeah!